Journal Thoughts

I always wanted to be married but since I found my love I am lonely. Moved alway from Alexandria where I made a life and friends.  Its been too lonely,  one because my husband works in another city/state. And its been very hard to make friends.  

One reason its been hard because I have not been working.  So I'm home a lot with the dogs. When my husband is home he's always out doing errands or hanging out with the boys. I'm left at home once again. 

My love just doesn't seem to understand I need companionship, too. 

He seems to think it's okay, if he hangs out with me for a couple hours or an afternoon,  it's okay to take off with the boys at night. But in fact it makes feel so lonely.  In my culture when your guy doesn't want to hang out with you because he doesn't like hanging out with you.  I get so insecure.  

I think now why my mom always said marry with the same culture. Or you have to deal with his culture and what he wants. 

I hate counting on my loves attention.  I wish he would wonder about me. And wish I was home to hang out with him.